for my CLOTTEY..

He's my friend, a companion, a stress reliever. He's been with me for 2 years now. I feed him, bathe him, comb his hair, wipe his pee & picked his poop, he maybe small but his a grown-up for me. one thing that has been forever w/ him back when i first had him.. he likes to poo outside my door's room! i get pissed sometimes but my love for him always win. that maybe the reason i don't wanna see him suffer. he is sick, his lungs had weakened that has triggered his immune system to drop down. he has not eaten anything for weeks now. the only thing he's been taking is water w/ dextrose powder. he got some itching, wounds that caused his hair to fall off, and colds..

ALL MY FAULT.

My shallow thinking has caused him sick. this freakin' news about pets that was victimized by heat stroke (for all we know the past summer has never been that hot!) that i saw on TV said to avoid it, is to shower your pets every morning to have the fresh feeling all day, and keep them indoors. so i did! and maybe that was the biggest  mistake I've never should have thought of doing. 

i pity my dog so much.. he is my first pet! every time i come home he always bark, wave his tail and come running towards me. i wanna remember him that way. i love him very much, that it pains me to see his condition now thinking his lungs have weakened because i showered him everyday. and he smells bad already.. the pus that is coming out from his wounds gives that smell. he barely can't see.. i never heard him bark again. last week papa told me to just mercy kill my dog, he said his sickness could infect our 2 other dogs.. we applied a lot of meds already.. we even tried the meds for humans.. not until the vet said he is suffering much already.. it has awakened selfishness.. and decided to agree w/ papa to put him to rest. was my decision right?? i love him so much that i don't wanna see him suffer longer. he suffered long enough because of my dumb thinking. now i only have my dog Miley w/ me and my brothers pit bull named Shibba.i love my dogs so much but these two could may never fill the spot that clottey left, for he is my number 1.. my first owned pet.

R.I.P My little boy.. :'(